JUST FOCUS DAMN IT!

I feel so great when I'm doing great. I hold my head high, I am confident in the choices I'm making and all seems right with the world. I'm able to focus and get results from my workouts. I actually work out. I get out of bed easier in the morning. I spend more time with my dog and she's happier. I look people more in the eye when I talk to them. I even flirt a little. But then I get lost on the inside and make bad choices based on my emotions. Then it's like an alcoholic at a wine tasting. It starts with a little taste, then before you know it, they're in the closet with the leftover bottles, sloshing it all around and sucking any rogue drops off of their shirt sleeves. I'm learning a lot about myself, and I'm learning that when I allow myself an inch, I'll take a mile. If I allow myself a little slip up, I'll allow myself a few more. Then I'll begin to see weakness as an option. Then it becomes a part of me, uncontrollable, justified, forgiven and repeated. I need to remember that I don't think about food like a normal person. I don't say no like a normal person. It's one of the challenges I've been given and I'll learn how to deal with it. Not necessarily conquer it and I think that's going to have to be the difference. Every day provides new challenges that I have to win. And I like to win. So here I go again...